Read this to judge me

I love this country.

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My legs are gnarly from all the sports, too.

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Italy Won. I got drunk.

1 week past surgery. teeth still hurt. I have a migraine almost 24/7. Slowly getting better.

Don't listen to what the Man says - keep your wisdom teeth where they goddamn belong.

thank you.

3.5 days after surgery. I tried not taking any painkillers today because they were made me feel dead. Not smart. I almost passed out from the pain, so I took one and now I'm back to feeling numb. Oh well. My sleep schedule is so fucked up now. There is absolutely NO good shows on TV at 4 in the morning. Bitches.

24 hours after the surgery. Medium Swelling of the gums. Extaordinary amount of pain, even with Perkaset. Low sex drive. Note to self: last affect may not be due to surgery. have that looked into.

10 hours after the surgery. I have 4 gaping holes in my mouth. i've spit out approximately 1 pint of blood. My lips are numb and its hard not to chew on them and my tongue. Tastes like chicken. Really gummy, tasteless, bloody chicken.

12 Hour countdown to the surgery. can't sleep. and i was called a SoCal Wussbag. no big deal.

physical pain: none
emotional pain: nervousness, insomnia, severe diarrhea, fetal-position-dom, i-think-im-turning-japanese-i-think-im-turning-japanese-i-really-think-so.

Basically, I look like this.

I flew back home to mother Seattle.

it's really cold and rainy, just like I remember.

the wisdom teeth are comin out in a couple days.. send me gifts. gifts help for a speedy recovery. particularly when they include jaggermeister.

I ate some Polska Kielbasa today.

no more community college for meeeeeee! I'm officially all done with it! SDSU for the win!

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life is good, the weather is good, etc.

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I am in love!

So my girlfriend and I broke up last night.

Breaking up is so ridiculously hard to do no matter what, I've decided. At least that is my experience with it.

She was really depressed and in a bad point in her life, and I felt like I was just another thing she had to worry about. We would always argue about the stupidest things, just to make up the next day. It was way too much drama to deal with - or at least i was told - but I stuck with it because in my eyes, it was worth it. I had to do what I did or I don't think I could live with myself. She wasn't happy and the fact that I couldn't make her completely happy killed me.

I am keeping busy as to keep my mind in a different place, but it keeps hitting me in the weirdest times. For example, she loved candy, and I went to the trash and saw a candy box (Zours!) in there. Also, I had to erase when she wrote "I love you, Joshua Stone" on my bullitin board, which was actually one of the harder things i've had to do recently.

...And then there is the facebook page. Yes, it sounds stupid, but for some reason, I had to check her facebook profile and see if she had already had changed her status from 'in a relationship' to 'single'. I feel like doing that is a sign that i've hit bottom. That broke me down and I actually started crying from disbelief.

Needless to say, I'm getting drunk tonight.